University has been really crazy, as shown by my total inactivity on this blog. There were so many good songs being released that I wanted to post about but my work is piling way over my head. Amidst all the tension and stress that I am feeling, the people who pulled me through, my friends and family, I thank you from the bottom of my heart. Without you all, maybe I would have given up a long time ago.
Miseinen, not of age, a minor. Despite turning 21 a month ago, I feel that I still have a lot of growing up to do. Voted as the number one fan-favorite song of the GazettE a while back, this song really tugged at my heart strings. I don't want to forget myself, I want to be as I am.
がむしゃらに何かを探してた 躓いてもいいから前に
馬鹿げてるのは分かってる、ただ後悔せぬよう走るのさ
信頼できるのは自分だけで、仲間なんていらなかった
何もかもに向けた刃 思春の羽は脆く儚い
強くなりたい 一人で生きる強さを
本当は裏切られるのが怖いだけ
逃げてばかりじゃ何一つ変わらないと
分かってるのに変われぬ僕がいる
誇らしげにかざしてた 孤独というプライドは
役に立たぬ理想へと逃げるための羽だった
誇らしげにかざしてた 自己主張という「RIOT」
この光の向こうには 自由などなかったんだ
Teenage Bluely Days
荒れていた毎日に溺れてたんだ
気付いたら孤独背負ってた
辛かった。本当は一人なんてね
望んで無かったんだ
強がってばかりじゃ本当の顔忘れちゃうから
たまに力抜いて誰かに頼ることも大事です
傷ついて・・・泣きたい時は大空に向かって大声で叫んでみて
私が私を忘れないように、私のままでいれるように。
こんな弱い僕のために背中押してくれた
父や母や仲間の励ます声が僕に光くれました
誇らしげにかざしてた 孤独と思春傷
役に立たぬ理想へと逃げるための羽だった
青く晴れたあの空に自由があるとするなら
この誇り高き羽が千切れても構わない
僕は走り出してた がむしゃらに空を目掛けて
羽を広げ飛び立った落下点は「自由」なのだと
素晴らしき家族を持ち、素晴らしき仲間を持った
最高の日々だった、生まれ変わったらまた逢おう・・・
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gamushara ni nani ka wo sagashiteta tsumaduitemo ii kara mae ni
bakageteru no wa wakatteru, tada koukai senu you hashiru no sa
shinrai dekiru no wa jibun dake de, nakama nante iranakatta
nanimo kamo ni muketa yaiba shishun no hane wa moroku hakanai
tsuyoku naritai hitori de ikiru tsuyosa wo
hontou wa uragirareru no ga kowai dake
nigete bakari jya nani hitotsu kawaranai to
wakatteru no ni kawararenu boku ga iru
hokorashige ni kazashiteta kodoku toiu puraido wa
yaku ni tatanu risou e to nigeru tame no hane datta
hokorashige ni kazashiteta jikoshuchou toiu [RIOT]
kono hikari no mukou ni wa jiyuu nado nakattanda
Oh yeah
areteita mainichi ni oboretetanda
kiduitara kodoku seotteta
tsurakatta. hontou wa hitori nante ne
nozonde nakattanda
tsuyogatte bakari jya hontou no kao wasurechau kara
tama ni chikara nuite dare ka ni tayoru koto mo daiji desu
kizutsuite... nakitai toki wa oozora ni mukatte oogoe de sakendemite
I don't want to forget myself, I want to be as I am
konna yowai boku no tame ni senaka oshite kureta
chichi ya haha ya nakama no hagemasu koe ga boku ni hikari kuremashita
hokorashigeni kazashiteta kodoku to shishun no kizu wa
yaku ni tatanu risou e to nigeru tame no hane datta
aoku hareta ao no sora ni jiyuu ga aru to suru nara
kono hokori takaki hane ga chigiretemo kamawanai
boku wa hashiri dashiteta gamushara ni sora wo megakete
hane wo hiroge tobitatta rakkaten wa [jiyuu] nanoda to
subarashiki kazoku wo mochi, subarashiki nakama wo motta
saikou no hibi datta, umarekawattara mata aou...
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I was recklessly searching for something, it doesn't matter if I stumble, I must press on
I know I look foolish but I just want to keep running without regrets
The only one I can depend on is myself, I didn't need anyone else
My pubescent wings were like a blade that pointed at everything yet they were brittle and fleeting
I want to be stronger, strong enough to be able to live on my own
In reality, I was just afraid of betrayal
Nothing will change if I keep running away
my unchanged self knew this all too well
I held it up proudly, this pride called "solitude"
It was just a pair of wings for me to escape to useless ideals
I held it up proudly, a RIOT called self-assertion
There is no freedom at the end of this light
Oh yeah
I drowned in the days of my unstable temper
When I finally realized, I was all alone
It was painful. Being alone...
was something I never wished for
If you keep acting tough, you will eventually forget your true self
Sometimes its important to take a step back and rely on others too
Getting hurt.... when you feel like crying, face the sky and scream it out
I don't want to forget myself, I want to be as I am
The encouraging voices of my family and friends pushed my weak self on
and shone light into my life
I held it up proudly, my loneliness and my scars from growing up
They were just wings for me to escape to useless ideals
If freedom was in those clear blue skies
I don't mind even if my prideful wings get shredded
I broke into a run, recklessly aiming for the sky
Spreading my wings, I leapt. Telling myself my landing point will be "freedom"
Having a wonderful family, having wonderful friends
Those days were the best, if we were to be reborn, let's meet again...
